lately i'm so tired
if i took it all out on you
i never meant to
if i left you outside
if you ever felt i ignored you
no, i'm all about you
lets see, i shall make a list of new year resolutions.
so here goes:
1, i want to get straight As, seriously
2, cut down on smoking
3, be more magnanimous
4, mix with the right company?
5, stop scolding so much vulgarities, even if its unintentional
6, be contented with my life and everything i have
7, dont EVER EVER trust what my heart says
8, get more tanned, but not chaotah please
9, go out more, i want my freedom, rawrrr!!!
10, maybe try opening up more and stop hurting myself
11, get to know god more cause i want to
well, i guess that's about all. 2007 hasnt got a very good start for me. its only the third day of school and i want to just drop dead and die, turn into ashes and erm, i didnt think beyond that. lolz. i've been really shagged from the few hours i sleep each day. i mean, its not that i dont wanna sleep but my brain just wont stop functioning for a while to let me have a nice sleep. so my sleeps werent that good either. and i've been to the dm room twice already. stupid school, stupid everything. rawrrr. i see the faith 4-4 guys get drunk everyday. so stupid. the face is as red as a baboon's butt luh, maybe more red. who cares. i shall not start fantasizing about alcohol. okay, so i'm currently in a huge mess. and i always end up saying i dont know what to do and dont know what to say. you must be thinking, how smart of me eh? who cares. i think i think too much anyway. dont feel like talking to anybody. even without the late at night phone calls, i still cant sleep. dammit. i seriously have to do something about this. otherwise i think i'll just drop dead one day. i've just realized i've typed quite alot already huh? lolz. so long, i wanna go watch my animes.
a constant wave of tension
on top of broken trust
Cain-ey; #17